Enlight 21

Young Hunger

Author: Audrey Kong | Category: Food | Date: 08-24-2020

When I was younger, my relationship with food was good. I loved to eat food and it made me feel good to be overly full. It was too the point where I was eating more than my two older sisters combined. Even when I realized this, I was still happy to eat. Recently, because I have stopped growing, I noticed that I need to change my eating habits. I was so used to eating as much as I could that this change was difficult. Because of my sudden change, my relationship with food has gone from good to unhealthy.

There are days of where I refuse to eat food and day where I mindlessly eat or binge on food. On those days where I binge, it is not the best feeling in the world. After eating one thing, I crave for more and more and I continuously eat. When I finish something, I scold myself and say that I shouldn't eat for the rest of the day, but I further continue to eat. Kind of like what Fisher felt after that one dinner of where she felt she couldn't get enough food, I would also get angry if I didn't feel satisfied. That is the danger of binge eating. You never feel satisfied. Yes, you may feel good in the moment of eating that piece of chocolate, but at the end of the day, it feels like trash.